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I'm back for the second time today. Surprised, aren't you? Well, I did say that I wasn't done yet. Although this blog will be very different from the rest. This blog will be quite person. This blog will have a few of my poems in it. This blog is special, just like her.
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I used to not believe in love. I used to think that love was just overly exaggerated affection. I used to think that love was just an excuse for people to do stupid things. I used to think that love was just a stupid excuse for people to make up bullshit occasions. But you see, all that changed. It all changed because of one person. The very same person I dedicate this post to.
All my life, I've been an asshole of the highest caliber. Even until this day, I am still an anus, although I'm just less of an anus than before. It's because of one person. My love. My life. My one true inspiration. And that's saying a lot, because I am not the kind of person who is very open to change. And yet without even trying, she made me feel the need to become a better person, or at least to try and become what I think a better person would be. It's hard, but I try.
This day marks the 10th month of our relationship (bullshit occasion), which is the longest relationship we've both had. We're both so far away from each other, and yet instead of growing apart, our bond strengthens each and every day. And I'll wait until we can be together again, because one thing I've learned from the short time we were able to spend together was that she's the greatest joy in my life. The half year I spent with her was filled with so much more joy than I've ever felt in my entire life. And I can still remember it all from start to finish. What you did to me.
You are my inspiration. You inspire not only my poetry, not only my writing, not only my music, but my whole life. You inspire me to live.
You're the most amazing person I've ever met. You're talented, kind-hearted, understanding, forgiving, gorgeous, and so much more. If I were to write down every single thing I love about you, I don't think even a website as big as Google could hold in my blog post. You're just beautiful, inside and out. No matter how many words I use to describe you, or my love for you, nothing is ever enough. I always feel as if there are still some points I haven't yet made.
Although this is all hard, this situation we're in. But no matter what happens, I could never get myself to give up on you. Giving up on you would be just the same as giving up on life. I'd rather be dead that to live without you in my life. But then again, I'd love to be dead. Just sleeping forever in peace, never to wake up to this cruel world. But you make it all worthwhile.
All my life, I've been an asshole of the highest caliber. Even until this day, I am still an anus, although I'm just less of an anus than before. It's because of one person. My love. My life. My one true inspiration. And that's saying a lot, because I am not the kind of person who is very open to change. And yet without even trying, she made me feel the need to become a better person, or at least to try and become what I think a better person would be. It's hard, but I try.
This day marks the 10th month of our relationship (bullshit occasion), which is the longest relationship we've both had. We're both so far away from each other, and yet instead of growing apart, our bond strengthens each and every day. And I'll wait until we can be together again, because one thing I've learned from the short time we were able to spend together was that she's the greatest joy in my life. The half year I spent with her was filled with so much more joy than I've ever felt in my entire life. And I can still remember it all from start to finish. What you did to me.
Dancing with the Dead
Breathed into clay
Giving life to the living dead
From her gorgeous face
Everyday. Again and again
In a singsong voice
She wakes the dead
An affectionate zombie
A little monster named…
Your lips taste caffeine
Bloody steel candy
Bring me to life
Hold on to me
A night on concrete
The stars won’t nod
Lovely necromancy
It’s still necrophilia
Dance of the dead
With shaking heads
Kill off the lights
Bring me back to life
Breathed into clay
Giving life to the living dead
From her gorgeous face
Everyday. Again and again
In a singsong voice
She wakes the dead
An affectionate zombie
A little monster named…
Your lips taste caffeine
Bloody steel candy
Bring me to life
Hold on to me
A night on concrete
The stars won’t nod
Lovely necromancy
It’s still necrophilia
Dance of the dead
With shaking heads
Kill off the lights
Bring me back to life
You are my inspiration. You inspire not only my poetry, not only my writing, not only my music, but my whole life. You inspire me to live.
She Puts the Arm in Armstrong
In conversations, deep as poetry
Because my beautiful moon always shines on me
The one gorgeous face of the moon
Every word he spits out
It’s like a song
And every sentence,
A mystery
Confused and ignorant,
They drown him in mockery
So my moon, come back
My moon, I need you back
I’m blind to your face
Where have you gone?
My dear, come back
Darling, I need you back
I’m just a pool
I can’t feel your pull
Your pull that brings me up
Away from my seafloor
Where simplicity lies
And that explained my life
So what’s so special about a puddle?
So close to the ground like a shower
Without you I’m meaningless
And couldn’t get any shallower
A sea, an ocean
With schools of meaning
As low a remnant
Of minutes of raining
Without you I survive
With tragic crying
A puddle of tears
Cause of my fears
My moon, please fix me
Because my beautiful moon always shines on me
The one gorgeous face of the moon
Every word he spits out
It’s like a song
And every sentence,
A mystery
Confused and ignorant,
They drown him in mockery
So my moon, come back
My moon, I need you back
I’m blind to your face
Where have you gone?
My dear, come back
Darling, I need you back
I’m just a pool
I can’t feel your pull
Your pull that brings me up
Away from my seafloor
Where simplicity lies
And that explained my life
So what’s so special about a puddle?
So close to the ground like a shower
Without you I’m meaningless
And couldn’t get any shallower
A sea, an ocean
With schools of meaning
As low a remnant
Of minutes of raining
Without you I survive
With tragic crying
A puddle of tears
Cause of my fears
My moon, please fix me
You're the most amazing person I've ever met. You're talented, kind-hearted, understanding, forgiving, gorgeous, and so much more. If I were to write down every single thing I love about you, I don't think even a website as big as Google could hold in my blog post. You're just beautiful, inside and out. No matter how many words I use to describe you, or my love for you, nothing is ever enough. I always feel as if there are still some points I haven't yet made.
Beyond Perfect
That unexplainable fragrance of yours
To be found nowhere else on this earth
Nowhere on this earth is there a word
You’re just too good for this world
Your smile if proof
That perfect isn’t perfect enough for you
And your brown eyes
That started this great story
Unusually strange
Bearing divine beauty
Oh, Juliet, my darling
How could you be so daring
As to walk this earth
Oh, baby doll, my dear
You make life so clear
You are beyond perfect
Despite the hearts you collect
You speak a million songs
And sing a million more
Although your words are light
You can lighten up any fight
On your white skin
In this beautiful sin
You just love my art
And the art you move in
Forgive the devil
Cure his evil
You listen to what I say
While the whole world
Heaven and hell turn away
That unexplainable fragrance of yours
To be found nowhere else on this earth
Nowhere on this earth is there a word
You’re just too good for this world
Your smile if proof
That perfect isn’t perfect enough for you
And your brown eyes
That started this great story
Unusually strange
Bearing divine beauty
Oh, Juliet, my darling
How could you be so daring
As to walk this earth
Oh, baby doll, my dear
You make life so clear
You are beyond perfect
Despite the hearts you collect
You speak a million songs
And sing a million more
Although your words are light
You can lighten up any fight
On your white skin
In this beautiful sin
You just love my art
And the art you move in
Forgive the devil
Cure his evil
You listen to what I say
While the whole world
Heaven and hell turn away
Although this is all hard, this situation we're in. But no matter what happens, I could never get myself to give up on you. Giving up on you would be just the same as giving up on life. I'd rather be dead that to live without you in my life. But then again, I'd love to be dead. Just sleeping forever in peace, never to wake up to this cruel world. But you make it all worthwhile.
All for You
An angel lives on your white skin
It’s a wonder that you give me your everything
Sing your lullabies to the blackest sheep
Inside and out
Shallow and skin-deep
It’s not just your bones
It’s not just your childish tone
It’s all that you are and all that you do
Be it hidden or shown
It’s all true
What else could I give?
What else could I do?
If love is sacrifice
I’d give it all for you
The air is toxic
I always feel so sick
But if you’ll grieve my death
Then I shall keep this breath
I give you the peace from my mind
Make you my life and leave bonds behind
Don’t worry, you’ll always be mine, hun
From midnight moon
To the morning sun
It’s not just your body
Oh, it’s everything, honey
It’s all that you are and all that you do
No matter what
I’d give it all for you
An angel lives on your white skin
It’s a wonder that you give me your everything
Sing your lullabies to the blackest sheep
Inside and out
Shallow and skin-deep
It’s not just your bones
It’s not just your childish tone
It’s all that you are and all that you do
Be it hidden or shown
It’s all true
What else could I give?
What else could I do?
If love is sacrifice
I’d give it all for you
The air is toxic
I always feel so sick
But if you’ll grieve my death
Then I shall keep this breath
I give you the peace from my mind
Make you my life and leave bonds behind
Don’t worry, you’ll always be mine, hun
From midnight moon
To the morning sun
It’s not just your body
Oh, it’s everything, honey
It’s all that you are and all that you do
No matter what
I’d give it all for you
And although how horrible of a person I am, you still put up with me. Your patience is astounding, and so is your love. This is one of the million reasons I love you so much. You can put up with someone as horrible as me. A monster of a man. Thank you.
We may not last forever, for I believe that nothing is forever. But all that matters to me is that we're together now, and right now is all I care about. And who knows? Maybe we could last a lifetime, which is like, just as good as forever.
Éternelle Lumière
Beautiful Shame
I will be your beautiful shame
I will happily take all the blame
And I know that you can anytime go
But you don’t
You love your very sorrow
Do they hear of me?
Do you speak of me?
I need not ask
As a total ass I spy
Because of the life of lies
Thank you from your beautiful shame
Thank you for loving me the same
Way I do
The world on your back
And my heart full of black
Thank you
I’m nothing but dismay
Yet I’m perfect in every way
And you know you’re right
But throughout the fight
We stay
Love always the same
Heartbreak from cynicism
And all you hear is my pessimism
And my tears call forth your own
Yet forever you will moan for me
My beautiful and lovely
I will be your beautiful shame
I will happily take all the blame
And I know that you can anytime go
But you don’t
You love your very sorrow
Do they hear of me?
Do you speak of me?
I need not ask
As a total ass I spy
Because of the life of lies
Thank you from your beautiful shame
Thank you for loving me the same
Way I do
The world on your back
And my heart full of black
Thank you
I’m nothing but dismay
Yet I’m perfect in every way
And you know you’re right
But throughout the fight
We stay
Love always the same
Heartbreak from cynicism
And all you hear is my pessimism
And my tears call forth your own
Yet forever you will moan for me
My beautiful and lovely
We may not last forever, for I believe that nothing is forever. But all that matters to me is that we're together now, and right now is all I care about. And who knows? Maybe we could last a lifetime, which is like, just as good as forever.
Éternelle Lumière
Sadly oceans apart
Now a mere breath is from a heavy heart
I awake with grief but with no despair
Because my sleep is no better than conscious air
Thoughts must remain as shallow as rain
While my mind is aloof and far off
Because deep in reality lies the pain
And my gloom only adds to these seas
Although with a simple glimmer of your teeth
And with the flight of your cheeks
Whenever you easily smile with your eyes
I’m reminded why I live this life
You are the ink of my pen
With which I write down my being
And no matter how tired and sore
I will live to see the day I hold you once more
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Now a mere breath is from a heavy heart
I awake with grief but with no despair
Because my sleep is no better than conscious air
Thoughts must remain as shallow as rain
While my mind is aloof and far off
Because deep in reality lies the pain
And my gloom only adds to these seas
Although with a simple glimmer of your teeth
And with the flight of your cheeks
Whenever you easily smile with your eyes
I’m reminded why I live this life
You are the ink of my pen
With which I write down my being
And no matter how tired and sore
I will live to see the day I hold you once more
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I love you.
Ti amo
Je t'aime
And thank you,
Anjeanette.
Ti amo
Je t'aime
And thank you,
Anjeanette.
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